I figured I would try and do an update here on what been going and maybe just to vent a bit. If you easily offended by my point of views and language then go away now.

Job hunting bites, still don’t have one because no one is either hiring or I’m not good enough for them. After all you have to take these wonderful little placement tests to see if your their type of person that you need to pass before I’m sure anyone would even look at you application. Frankly fuck them all. Go figure I’m not good enough for fucking Wal-Mart but I bet a Mexican with a work visa (or not) would get hired.

A big thanks goes out to Justin Weis who got me fired and Dan Lewis the friend who stabbed me in the back who helped him. Heaven help them if I ever fucking see them in town.

A few days ago my main computer got bugged with some virus/worm thing that sent it into a restart cycle. It would power up for a few minutes then do a reset, repeat. Since this old piece of shit (that I’m on now) one barely works and took forever to get online. The only thing I could do was a system restart on it. Now it appears the virus/worm is gone since it hasn’t done the restart thing but now everything on it is fucked up beyond belief. All my programs including my anti virus one wont work without reinstalling them, I cant find any of my documents or folders where anything was saved in including pictures and stuff for VampyreArmy, and that just the tip of it all. Yesterday it couldn’t figure out what screen setting to have with this monitor, the “new super small icons” or the usual default one I always had. Up to yesterday I had at least been able to play World of Warcraft but now even that is fucked up with it crashing or freezing up on me. Needless to say I might have to do a full system wipe after I try and save what I can find to save on it. Seems like an easier task anyways since nothing works anyways. That’s even assuming I care anymore about even doing that.

Well I spent the last few hours reinstalling World of Warcraft and I still get an error message. All that bullshit time wasted. I’m sick of it.
I’ve pretty much lost interest in everything now. This computer problem was the final nail for me.

Things really havent been going that great for me. I’ve been as depressed as one can get with even the slightest things going wrong setting me off. Every night I go to bed part of me hopes I don’t wake up. Frankly I don’t even care anymore if I didn’t wake again.